I am a proud mom of one beautiful baby girl, ok she’s nine years old, but she is and forever will be my baby is what I always tell her. Our journey has not been easy, but when reflecting about how our life started together motherhood has certainly moulded me in the person I’ve always wanted to be.
I met my princess nine years ago and one memory that always sticks with me is peeping into her crib thinking wow I can’t believe this baby is mine but will I ever be enough? I felt so nervous but at the same time filled with so much happiness, I don’t have words to explain it. Having Jayla at a young age came with its own trials and tribulations, I truly believe she was meant to be in my life at that very moment for a very special reason, she adds so much joy and fulfillment I can’t go a day without her.
Her father and I are not together so currently I’m the sole provider, sole decider practically sole everything. Not that I’m complaining about it, just giving an indication that there are plenty of ups and downs. Sometimes coping with everything on my own feels so overwhelming and I literally feel like running away from my own life. However, when I feel that way I pray for strength and guidance, and surprisingly that particular day goes so smooth it’s unbelievable.
I have a full time job, someone needs to pay all our bills. I’m studying a degree in HR, which I must admit has given me a different zest for life.
My daughter always inspires in me in everything I do. She gives me hope, brings me so much laughter and we teach each other so many things like currently I’m learning how to do the floss her favourite dance which by the way I was told “I need to get it right because I will just embarrass her and myself” the pressure.
I’m so blessed with all the special moments we get to share together, no doubt some days are better than others and what we have been through hasn’t been exactly easy, I have had to wipe a few tears over the years many times not only from her but mine too.
I always admire parents who stick it out and go through everything together. Single parenting is a mission, but I can't deny I've been truly blessed, my mother and sister have been so instrumental by filling some of the gaps. Raising Jay in our loving home is so much appreciated, I have the greatest support mechanism, and that’s my secret to coping. I have realized family is everything I don’t think I would have any sanity without my loving and supporting family. I try my utmost to spend as much time as possible with my daughter, but also have peace of mind knowing while I’m fighting for survival in the real world my family is there for her.
I thank God for all my blessings, for my family members and my amazing daughter who is my whole life. I’m happy with my status I can’t think of anything more complicated right now maybe someday, one day for now it’s just the two of us and it's perfect.