I’ve been fine the past two weeks. I mean so what if I’ve been so exhausted that I’ve taken the kids to school in my pjs more than a few times, and yes I have to walk them into class, and no I had no shame. I’ve also been a joy to be around. I told the kids that I’m sending them to boarding school seeing as they don’t listen to me and I made sure to snap at my husband at least twice a day. So yes I’ve been fine.
There’s been an incredible lot on my plate these past 2 weeks, I won’t stress you out with all the details; but throwing studying into the mix hasn’t been as easy to navigate as I thought. It’s been mountains of work for my business, my husband’s business, school projects, lectures, studying, soccer practice, extra murals, the list really does go on and on.
Yesterday my husband called BS and literally forced me to sit and spill it. ‘What’s going on in your heart and head,’ he asked. I burst into tears and told him he clearly wanted to start a fight and needed to examine why he was so unhappy in our marriage. Ooooooof. Ok in this moment I realized I wasn’t fine. We talked and talked and he helped me figure out what was going on. It was really no biggie, just some time management issues and needing to strike that ideal balance for our family, but not taking the time to check in with myself was taking it’s toll on me. I’m so surprised that I didn’t even realize how overwhelmed I’ve been.
As moms we are so used to being busy and rushing around like crazy people that we are often the last to notice that we need some of that time and care too.
This weekend; in between the groceries, kids parties, deadlines, soccer or whatever you have to do, take some time to check in with yourself. I seriously think I’m going to set a reminder on my phone, one that I hopefully won’t ignore, to do just that.
So take a breath momma you’re amazing and you got this.